abyss

I never pegged myself for a quitter
I never pegged you for one, either
I never stood for just getting by
I never stood for just passing the time

I’ve been staring into the abyss a little
to find myself at my weakest, brittle
walked too slowly
and woke up devoid of any reason, purpose or choice

I despised that version of me
scanning rooms with weary eyes
begging for some sympathy
looking, sounding, nothing like me
till I found it in me to say…
fuck you
and fuck this abyss

I never thought I could be a bother
never thought we could lose each other
but as you pushed me on the brink of the abyss
I could only remember your hiss…


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